Invaluable Fullness

Photo Belongs to Ono Shozo

Change always comes bearing gifts. ~Price Pritchett

Throughout my life, countless friends and family members have offhandedly remarked that having kids will "change your life". When I heard this phrase, I silently felt cautious and was always left deciphering whether they really meant "ruin your life".

Now I'm on the other end of the phrase and my life is in the process of being changed. I see subtle and mild changes in my emotions and thoughts such as, "my body is going to carry two babies as they grow...", being excited beyond belief at the thought of meeting them in person, dreaming about how they will look and feeling a sense of motherhood emerging. Some changes are more obvious and physical like my gawking in amazement at my growing belly, shopping for double strollers and rearranging furniture.

I'm also learning that without these babies, I would never meet the version of my future self who has given birth, is a mother, has learned to breast feed two babies and has acquired wisdom and knowledge that I could never learn otherwise. This woman is waiting out there in the not so distant future and she will be me, but that me will be changed.

Motherhood is like a beautiful glass vase that is slowly opening and forming. Each day on the path of motherhood is like a pearl that I place into the vase, filling it with beautiful translucence.

The life is made more full by the presence of the vase. The vase is made more full with each day. The life is changed, made better, more beautiful. Moving towards invaluable fullness.

~Riss