Another way I think pregnancy parallels parenting is how every single day is completely different from the next. This seems true on multiple levels. First being the physical. Today my back might be killing me, my body might feel enormous , I might not be able to fall asleep and I may have other less glamorous side effects of this condition. When I think, "am I going feel this way for the next 8 weeks?" I get very discouraged.
However, I realize that pregnancy literally changes from day to day and it's so comforting to remember that perhaps tomorrow I will feel utterly different and possibly so much better.
I imagine that taking care of my daughters will be a similar occupation. When I just get it all figured out, then they will change and I will have to adjust. But also when they are going through a mind-numbing stage that drives me to the edge, I can take comfort in the realization that tomorrow will probably be better...or at least different.
It feels so hard to live in the moment. In times of struggle I usually want to escape to a happier day or a more comfortable place. Who doesn't? I even find myself realizing that once this pregnancy is over then the really hard parts begin! (I know that seems obvious...)
Why does my heart always get ahead of itself and want to jump ahead? There will be just as much difficulty in the next stage. Hopefully there will also be just as much joy.
There will be so much more joy! And just as much difficulty (not going to lie about that one). But oh its so wonderful being a mommy!
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